Sunday, 29 June 2008

21 years ago today.

My Mum passed away. I spent the end of last week churning up inside thinking about the date... and you know what?? Yep, I forgot the date today... now was this because I had Jordan stay over last night and today we made an almighty start on clearing my loft or because somewhere deep down I have accepted that the date is of no significance in reality... as every day is another day without her. Whilst in the loft, in among some pictures was a framed poem with a tiny photo of mum on it.. I put it to one side and brought the rest down for a car boot sale and because with Jordan's music on and him singing away :D I didnt want to bring the mood down at all...

It was a while later that my sis ( Jord's mum) asked me if I was going to the cemetery (I'm normally the only one who goes as the other two have their own way of showing their respect etc) I was really taken back that I had not woken up knowing the date... its so unlike me.. I decided not to go, instead I will wander up one day in the week... when the feeling comes over me.

Here is a photo of her taken at age 23 which was the age I was when she passed away.

She would have so loved her grandchildren...

RIP my angel xxx


Emma said...

Oh hun I just don't know what to say. You are such an extraordinary person and she would be so proud of you. The 18th of Nov is always my big day (well tell you why one day) and last year I was in hospital and simply forgot. Felt so guilty the next day when I eventually remembered.
I think right now she is probably smiling down on you and is happy knowing that you are at peace with her. Sending you lots of love Emma.x

Heather (Craftling) said...

Ohh, Gina.. my face is wet! (sniff) Your mum was so beautiful, and she always will be.. in your heart.

Umm.. I hardly dare say it, but - on a different topic - there is an award for you awaiting collection on my blog. When you're ready, hun. No rush.

Heather xx

Sarah C said...

Gina, even though there are certain days of the year that have a note by them, this does not stop us from being human and forgetting occasionally. what matters is that the people in question are always in our hearts.

I have a job remembering how many years it is since certain people passed away and used to feel guilty about it. Now I realise that that may be part of the healing process and that when I think of them, I do so with a smile on my face and a warmth in my heart.

I'm sure that a mum as pretty as yours would forgive you for anything.

((((((HUGS)))))) xxxx

Anonymous said...

Aww Gina your entry made me cry. It sounds like time is healing your wounds and it's okay to deal with things differently as the years pass. She will always be your angel and she'll always be in your heart. x

Vicky said...

just wanted to send you a hug and say - look at my blg....something for you there